more than just your typical graduating student

prelims is done
thesis is almost finished
immersion is finally over

DEFENSE...say no more
papers, papers, and more PAPERS! and reports...not just basic references needed, more like of a researcher's work already
quizzes, not your typical quiz...more like of, what the heck was the Dean thinking!?
other stressors

are just around the corner

screw YOU
you who told me that 4th year is easy...
i never found it to be easy, not even in the slightest sense

so tired

a few weeks left...sweet graduation, here i come!
hoping, still...

jai ho

the most challenging prelim exams ever...

jai ho! :)

...but wait, there's more!

:(

understanding...finally

iintindihin kita...
hanggang sa dulo ng walang hanggan

:)

misunderstanding the understood

i am sorry
that i am like this

can you blame me?
even if you know that it's because of the past?
even if you know that i am just a product of what had been?

i am just too afraid

spare me some
understanding

as you did with...
the other one

understanding the misunderstood

you said that you need space
and so, i tried and gave you some

you said that we need to bond more with others
and so, i tried and did accept it

stop this and not this...

when will i become...
so important that you will no longer trade me
for something else?
for someone else?
for anything else?

unreasonably,
i think that i should be the only one in your world...

but that's just cause
you still don't know how to make me feel important...

i know that it's not entirely your fault,
but i don't know...
i may not have the capacity to understand and know everything,
but at least i try to understand...

how about you?
can you at least
try
to make me feel something?

try to...
feel what i feel

too dangerous-
this is dangerous
it's not you,
it's me...

the USED

USED.

what will you feel
if all the necessary actions by some people
lead to this thought?

will you be...
MAD?
or will you go...
MAD?

things are just falling into
the wrong places

but i am so glad that this phase of my life is...
almost over

a bow

enlightenment

if i were to kill myself,
then it wouldn't be KILLING...

...it would be LIBERATING myself

i pass the baton to you, my dear reader

the NEW in new year

a few days before christmas, i was down and out
needless to say that i was devastated

a few days before the new year,
you revived me
and now i am whole again

you and i are new creations...
new creations having a new beginning

now that we're stronger, we will ultimately become

limitless