BETTER not BITTER

i remember you telling me that i am "better, not bitter"

and i tell you, that's what i feel right now
i feel fulfilled
...just cause it's not me

for a change, i know for a fact that i did good
:D

what's next

i gave up everything
i did everything
i don't regret anything
i did my best

when was the last time that i became good enough?
hmmm...i don't quite remember

in the end, my karma will be better

ridin' solo

RIDIN' SOLO
Jason Derulo

i'm putting on my shades to cover up my eyes,
i'm jumping in my ride, i'm heading out tonight,
i'm solo, i'm ridin' solo, i'm ridin' solo, i'm ridin' solo, solo
i'm feeling like a star, you can't stop my shine,
i'm loving cloud nine, my head's in the sky,
i'm solo, i'm ridin' solo, i'm ridin' solo, i'm ridin' solo

ikaw na :D

ikaw na ang bahala ah?
:D

mag-aantay na lang ulit ako
:D

someone else

ang hirap sabihin sa isang tao na may gusto pala sayo na may mahal ka na...
ang hirap kasi ayoko manakit o manggamit ng tao...
pero ayoko rin namang magpaasa...

:/ ano ba tong pinagsusulat ko?!

343

third month...four three! :D

am lovin it...every bit of it

sanctuary

you are my peace and my sanctuary, but how can that be possible if you're the one that's causing me all this pain right now? i find peace and myself in you, but how can i feel right when everything just feels wrong? understanding and space, as they say, is the key...but how can i try to understand you if you just don't want to let me understand you? how about space? you are my space and my sanctuary...with that, i am having a hard time giving us some space...i am attached to you

i am sorry for all the stupid things i've done, but believe me i didn't mean to cause you pain as well... :(

i love you

unexplainable sadness

i am sad, obviously
but the reason for this loneliness is not that clear
i want to blame you, but i just can't
i want to cry, but i just don't want to

is history going to repeat itself?
i hope not the bad parts
i hope not the bad parts
i hope not the bad parts

for all it's worth it's already near breaking dawn

a retreat to remember

december 01, 2010-december 03, 2010
caleruega

a place to remember
memories that would last a lifetime
friends to share it with
and a heartbreak that i caused

the place was breath-taking
the activities nourished my soul
and the people were just awesome

on that retreat, however, i did not do anything which is why i caused a heartbreak
and i am sorry

i'll make it up to you
someday, somehow

i'm supposed to talk to you again now, but you're not yet home
you're somewhere else :/

pag-aaral

well wala namang bago, aral parin...yun nga lang mas busy at stressed na ngayon...siguro dahil graduating rin ako...or siguro dahil stress parin ang mga prof ko...ewan ko lang

but despite having difficult subjects and professors, i enjoy it all while not having to compensate for the learning part... :D

i can always brag about having difficult subjects and great professors who mold me into the best student who i can be

GRRAWR

GRRAWR!! may blog entry ako dapat...kaso medyo low-tech ang UST internet connection kaya nawala...pati yun sa thesis, epal parin ang internet connection!! :O

ang ganda ng internet dito :/

a birthday to remember

"happy birthday!"

na-touch po ako sa lahat ng mga bumati, nakaalala, nagtext, tumawag at nagparamdam...
d ko po kayo malilimutan...

taos-puso po akong nagpapasalamat sa inyong lahat :D

thesis

stressful days...
sabi ng iba, ang career raw ng group ko...career nga ba?! e parang wala pa nga kaming nagagawa eh... :( nahihiya na nga rin kami sa thesis adviser namin eh... haiiii, pano na ba to?!

buti na lang inspired :) hahaha...biglang siningit? wala lang :)

correction

CORRECTION!

i didn't fail, INC nga lang... :|
stupid plagiarizers, kakaines

SUMO

SUMO=Shut Up, Move On

ethics...i'm over
d bale, naranasan kong magkaron ng 1.0-5.0 na grade hahaha
from DL to failure, back to back!

plastic plastic plastic

september 27, 2010

today i went to my friend's plastic factory
needless to say i was excited and ecstatic
but then again my friend was not there
i enjoyed it somehow

right now i'm somewhere close to the edge of my comfort zone
but i'm still satisfied

stoicism and justice

we discussed stoicism in class yesterday afternoon and i was very enlightened...
i want to be a stoic...
chill chill lang...
it's not that nothing's wrong, but it's just a matter of perspective...
we are our own worst enemies and we need to fix ourselves

a theory of justice by john rawls
this is my chosen theory for my ethics paper...
the concept is very interesting, however, the development of the theory itself is too dragging...
i have a few days to pull this off...
so help me God

ethics=the next big thing to hit town

heaven or hell?

fourth year sure means a lot of stress

but despite everything, i am inspired

unending papers, reports, quizzes, seminars, extra curricular activities

unending support, care, love

i learned to hate and to be hated

but i also learned how to love and to be loved

the end of pain

the beginning of happiness

hell

heaven

smiling like the sun

i'm tired of staring at the sun
so i've decided to smile just like the sun

facing hardships and trying to overcome them is difficult
so why not go with the flow?

if i can't beat the problems
i should just join them
and just let me be myself

i can smile a lot easier right now,
knowing that you are always there for me-
always here in my heart...

no matter how difficult each step is,
i will never ever face it alone anymore

i love you

harakiri

4ASN1
let
us
commit
harakiri!

together
we
shall
die



stressed... dying... dead...

nine to ten (intoxicated)

i was once so weak

but you helped me get through every struggle

i am now getting stronger by the minute

because i am empowered by your love

you make me whole and feel that i'm the luckiest guy on earth

every little thing you do is magic

every little thing you do is perfect

every little thing you do brings out the best out of me

you are my life, figuratively speaking,

but nonetheless consciousness drives me to go there

"the chairness of the chair

and even the tableness of the table"

...it may be too difficult for people to explain

but i daresay that i will go the distance just to have you

and i'll give up everything for you

i love you forever

and forever starts right now...

love drunk

i am sorry

this is tragic
i am sorry

i feel like my world's infected by problems and fears
solutions seem like a million miles away

i can only blame myself
and i've hurt myself by hurting you

sometimes i wish i could just evaporate
evaporate, and the world will never even notice anything different

i am just a tiny speck in this world-
a virus that seems to spread and help advance the annihilation of mankind

i was stupid
i am sorry

wake me up when september ends

september can't get any worse...
i've been hurt, and i've hurt my someone so bad...
we're both very damaged...

plus a lot of stress, and external pressures that never cease to exist...
i can't go on living a lie, but the truth hurts me more...

just wake me up when this nightmare is over...
wake me up when september ends...

or better yet, don't wake me up...

thinking outside the box

Q: how are you?
A: i guess i'm okay...why do you ask?

Q: you seem distracted...are you really okay?
A: uh yeah, i think so...i was down yesterday because of the chinese philo part 2 prelims, but i think i'm okay now...

Q: why do you say so?
A: cause i'm already smiling?

Q: ano naman kung naka-ngiti ka?
A: it's a sign of being happy even though i'm not...i'm a lonely clown, as you may notice and know...but i am really okay now...

Q: and so how does that make you feel?
A: it doesn't...

---teka lang ha? kinukulit kasi ako ng mga ka-thesis ko...babalikan kita soon hahaha---

the world better prepare

i wanna be a BILLIONAIRE so fricking bad

buy all of the things i never had

i wanna be on the cover of Forbes magazine

smiling next to Oprah and the Queen

everytime i close my eyes

i see my name in shining lights

A DIFFERENT CITY EVERY NIGHT

oh i swear

the world better prepare for when i'm a billionaire

http://www.lyricsoncall.com/lyrics/travis-mccoy/billionaire-lyrics.html

waaaa...i wish it could be that easy

but then again ok lang kung hindi ako yumaman...

libre naman mangarap lang :D

a different city every night, wow talaga yun...

the world really needs to prepare for when i'm a billionaire

truth and lies

"the truth hurts, but lies are worse..."

yeah...it's better to be hurt by the truth than to be hurt because you found out something that you thought was the truth but was actually a lie...

i always ask of what the truth is...

really, what is it?

what is the truth?

it is an unending quest for me...

50 + 1 questions

[ZERO] Who was your last text from?- kambal

[ONE] Where was your default pic taken?- Batangas

[TWO] Your relationship status?- single and ready to mingle LOL

[THREE] What' s your littlest siblings name?- Frances Paola Jao Uyseco

[FOUR] Have you lost a close friend?- only one haha

[FIVE] What is your current mood?- happy

[SIX] Whats your brother(s) names ?- not applicable haha

[SEVEN] Sister's names ?- Frances Paola Jao Uyseco

[EIGHT] Where do you wish you were right now?- Tokyo, Japan

[NINE] Have a crazy side?- but of course

[TEN] Person you are closest with?- myself (emo)

[ELEVEN] Something you do a lot?- being emo, still (haha)

[TWELVE] Angry at anyone?- not anymore

[THIRTEEN] What' s stopping you from going for the person you like?- she's not yet ready LOL arte

[FOURTEEN] When was the last time you cried?- a few weeks ago, i think

[FIFTEEN] Is there anyone you would do anything for?- duh

[SIXTEEN] What do you think about when you are falling asleep?- being emo, still

[SEVENTEEN] Who was the last person you talked to on the phone ?- yung unggoy kong kakambal

[EIGHTEEN] What is your favorite song?- too many to mention! di dapat ganito ang tanong haha

[NINETEEN] What are you doing right now?- answering these questions...

[TWENTY] Do you trust anyone right now?- yup, of course

[TWENTY-ONE] Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?- SCHOOL UNIFORM po ang suot ko haha

[TWENTY- TWO] Have you hugged someone lately?- not recently

[TWENTY-THREE ] How many people have you loved?- subjective ang definition ng love haha

[TWENTY- FOUR] Describe your life in one word.- challenging

[TWENTY-FIVE] Who/ What are you thinking of right now?- no one/class ko mamaya kay Dr. Co at Dr. Jimenez

[TWENTY- SIX] What should you be doing right now?- studying

[TWENTY- SEVEN ] What are you listening to?- the sound of people cramming here in the library haha

[TWENTY- EIGHT ] Who was the last person who gave you a hug?- my mom :)

[TWENTY-NINE] Who was the last person who yelled at you?- my mom haha

[THIRTY] Do you act differently around the person you like?- d naman

[THIRTY-ONE] What is your natural hair color ?- black

[THIRTY- TWO] Who was the last person to make you laugh ?- yun unggoy parin

[THIRTY-THREE] Who was the last person to make you mad?- alam niyo na yun, hahaha...leche

[THIRTY-FOUR] What pets do you have?- lamok haha

[THIRTY-FIVE] Is your hair naturally curly or straight?- straight

[THIRTY-EIGHT ] Hugged the opposite sex in the past 3 days?- yes of course

[THIRTY-NINE] Do you use smiley faces on the computer?- yup

[FORTY] Plans for the weekend?- church

[FORTY-ONE] Are you happy with your life right now?- oo naman

[FORTY-TWO] Are you currently jealous?- nope, no one to be jealous of

[FORTY-THREE] What jewelry are you currently wearing?- i don't wear jewelry haha

[FORTY- FOUR] What were you doing last Friday night ?- staring blankly while waiting for my marriage and family class to be over...SDP GA

[FORTY-FIVE] Have you ever had your heart broken?- yup

[FORTY-SIX] Have you ever broken a heart?- never...ako yun parating heart broken eh hahaha

[FORTY-SEVEN] Is there anybody you're really disappointed in?- yup

[FORTY-EIGHT ] Last person you hangout w/?- mae, edith and rohj

[FORTY-NINE] How late did you stay up last night and why?- 11pm lang ata...nakatulugan ko yun binabasa ko at mga katext ko haha

[FIFTY] How is your heart lately?- happy

*ayedah, pa-kopya hahaha

"are you ready?!"

i suddenly remembered "ate" from axe philippines during their visit in UST...

(out of nowhere)
ate: hi! are you ready (keeps on talking...but i just can't remember what it is she's trying to say just because i'm so mesmerized at her)
wayne: uhm...(nodding my head)yes?!
(and the rest is history)

so here i am remembering that star-struck moment just because it's that time of the school year again...prelim exam week is just around the corner, and i am not ready! (well, i was never that ready for prelims...)

but this year will be different...
a lot less obligations will help me focus in studying hell-raised subjects such as Chinese Philosophy, Modern Japan, and the like... (good thing our Globalization and Development professor do not give prelim exams, LOL)

right now, i am not ready...
but i will soon be (hopefully)

*hi to ate*

intellectual vampires

there are a lot of intellectual vampires in the world, and i hate them...
i mean, they have their own brain cells right?
right?

hmm...
a thought to ponder...
i'm not really sure if they do have brain cells...damn

liar liar pants on fire

well i thought that you were different...
after all, "you value honesty"
really now?

yet again, i knew at that point that i need to find out the truth

the truth...ah, what is the truth?

researching, thinking, assessing what seems to be the greatest truth...
yes i found out that you are, in fact, a liar...
but then again i won't condemn you
just because i would like to keep it a secret from you...
i know better...
i don't think you know just who you are...
one day you might just burn up from lying too much

so, what's the truth? dare explaining?
no need
i already know

i'm not as dumb as you think
you're not as smart as you think

one day
i will just laugh at you for getting all caught up by your lies
and when that day comes
i'll just let you burn
cause you are a liar

liar liar pants on fire

SONA (part 2)

full of dire criticisms...

walk the talk...

i can't paste my GlobDev paper here...

just see the printed version

hahaha

SONA (part 1)

072610

1st State of the Nation Address of the newly elected president...

today is a very formal event and a very important part of Philippine history because of the SONA. a SONA is important because it tells about a certain administration's fulfilled projects, etc. today, however, Mr. President forgot about the necessity of declaring a holiday for then said event. it is important for each and everyone to know about what he has done in the past 26 days which is why there should be no classes today.

how can i assess and even write my paper about his SONA if i can't watch it because i have classes today?! i know that there is such a thing as internet and all, but i think that it is really important to see it live...it's different...it really is

i pause for awhile until the SONA itself takes place

never assume

NEVER assume


walang kwenta ang pag-assume dahil malamang hindi ito totoo...tsismis lang yan

ampalaya

di ko malaman kung bakit kaso parang gusto ko ng ampalaya ngayon...

hindi ako pihikan sa ganyang klaseng gulay kaso talagang gustong gusto ko niyan ngayon...dati rati ay iniiwasan ko pa yan (lalo na nung bata pa ko), ngunit ngayon parang gusto kong habulin ang super gulay na ampalaya...

total, healthy yun

another good song

B R O K E N
Seether feat. Evanescence

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph, I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

04:01AM

it's 04:01am and I'm still pretty much awake...

weird...I've been in front of the computer for the past "n" hours
but unlike before,it feels so quiet today

listen
sound
heartbeat

sleep

one

i will never forget this one...

now and forever

untitled figure 3.4

these days are different
last year was the time of my life
today, i am just waiting for death to arrive

they say that life is meaningful only when you are at the top
well i beg to differ because it's when you're down and low when you'll learn to realize that the best things in life-ah, you've experienced it all...it only takes a positive outlook in life to realize that
yes i miss the man I, but I don't regret anything right now just because I am still that man (with the exception that I have a lot less obligations)
I chose this road, and I may miss myself sometimes
BUT I don't regret what I did yesterday because tomorrow is another opportunity for me to discover a new road-a road that may be similar in nature or a road that would be more arduous for me to take
life is a rollercoaster even if you're almost at the end of the ride

i am waiting for death to arrive

free

a few seconds
that's how long it took me to know about some people
a few minutes
that's how long it took me to be the topic of the year
one day
that's how long it took me to realize some things
one month
that's how long it took me to finally get over some things

a few wrong moves and just about one good turn
that's what made me understand that i didn't need an inspiration when i thought that i needed it
i need to be who i am
after all, i am...free

arte

ayaw na ayaw ko sa mga tao ang ugaling pag-iinarte...

nasaktan ng minsan, patatagalin ito hangga't sa maging self-inflicted na lang ang sakit...in short, nag-iinarte...
di ko lubos na maintindihan kung bakit kailangan mag-inarte ang mga tao pero hindi ko rin sila masisi sapagkat ako mismo ay nag-iinarte pa-minsan minsan...
bakit nga ba kailangan mag-inarte?
hindi ko rin alam...
hindi ko alam...
hindi ko malalaman...

against all odds

everything and everyone is against me...
but you know what?
it's when these things happen that you find out who's real or not
it's when these things happen that you learn

all the pain
all the sorrow
all the hatred
all the bitterness
is gone

and despite everything that had happened,
i can finally say that
i am still happy

nothing as weak as these can break me
i am stronger than what people can see about me

i may be too vocal about it to my friends
i may be too quiet about these to some
but you know what?
i am my own being and nothing and no one can make me feel bad without my consent
i managed to learn it all by myself

i may be ranting on things
and i may seem vulnerable right now
but believe me, some people just taught me how to get over them

break me and i'll stand firm

I DESPERATELY NEED YOU

Meteor Shower
Owl City

i can finally see
that you're right beside me

i am not my own
for i have been made new
please don't let me go
i desperately need you

i am not my own
for i have been made new
please don't let me go
i desperately need you

it's a beautiful day

060210
it's a beautiful day...
really...
it couldn't been better...

a call
rain
slacking

Lee DeWyze's song is a mere representation, good one

JFK by gray matters

gray matter can mean a lot of things...

what comes into your mind when i say gray matter? it may mean stuff that are gray or the thing in the brain (i am not that sure, lol)...thing is, there is a lot inside every story, and there is a lot of explanations, reasons, hidden meaning-the literary stuff geniuses do...

you might also interpret this paragraph differently...well, that depends...that depends...

one thing's for sure though...the author knows his work best, not the critic and reader...

screw this

mental piss

high blood

bloody-hell

thoughts and actions

racing and depleting

mental piss

oo, alam mo na yon...ikaw na, ikaw na talaga

of greek gods and demigods

i was really entertained by the movie
"Percy Jackson and the Olympians: the Lightning Thief"...
it was based from the book also titled as such...
it is a modern day application of ancient Greek mythology to bring resonance to contemporary thoughts...
i really like it

i don't believe in the Greek gods and demigods, but if i were a god i would be Poseidon and Athena's son because i love water and wisdom so much...

son of Zeus
son of Poseidon
son of Hades

pictures from http://www.percyjacksonthemovie.com/quiz/

.\../ astig ng movie!

judge me in the most unbiased way

this is harassment:

a few months back, our student council had a project... everything went well, and i even submitted the liquidation report...

at the end of the school year, we were summoned by the dean's office to submit the liquidation report for the said project... they said that we did not submit it... i was offended because it's my honesty and integrity that they're questioning... we tried to prove them wrong by presenting a photocopy of the liquidation report submitted (i never submit a report unless i have a photocopied version), but they said that it does not prove anything since there is no "received" stamp... my rebuttal was "they never stamped on my photocopied reports!!", now if that is the case, then why did they not say that all of the reports were missing...? now my good friend cannot enroll this coming semester because of this unresolved issue... another thing, whenever we talk to them, they just say "bahala ka" or "it's not with us"...they don't even try to listen! what on earth!?

be the judge, who's fault is it?

sa tuwing babanat si Confucius, napapanis ang lahat

"to learn and to practice what is learned time and again is pleasure, is it not? to have friends come from afar is happiness, is it not? to be unperturbed when not appreciated by others is gentlemanly, is it not?"
-Confucius

i checked the website of the Asian Center of the University of the Philippines in Diliman and i am so thrilled to take up my MA East Asian Studies (major in China or Japan-undecided), and my tri-college PhD in Philippine Studies (major in Philippine Foreign Relations *from UP Asian Center*; Philippine Literatures *from UP College of Arts & Letters*; and Anthropology, Demography, Geography, History, Philosophy, Political Science, or Sociology *from UP College of Social Sciences and Philosophy*)

sana magkatotoo

4ASN1 schedule

MONDAY
3pm-6pm ASN209 Modern Japan room 202
6pm-9pm ASN211 Modern China room 202
WEDNESDAY
3pm-6pm PHL204 Chinese Philosophy room 214
6pm-9pm ASN210 Globalization and Development room 206
FRIDAY
3pm-6pm PHL6 Ethics room 204
6pm-9pm SCL9 Marriage and the Family room 204
SATURDAY
8am-11am FL1 Mandarin 1 room 107
12pm-3pm LRT Land Reform and Taxation room 208

june 30, 2010

June 30, 2010 is the day...
will mr. benigno "noynoy" aquino be president? and will mr. mar "mr.palengke" roxas be vice president?
honestly, i don't like them...
i told myself that i will be on a hunger strike if noynoy wins and i will be on strike/rally if both noynoy and mar wins...
noynoy did nothing in congress, not to mention "not having his own decision" to be president of our country... it's a shame that we vote for incompetent, "no political will" people in office... what a father did does not reflect the capability of his son, that would be fallacious... his mother is not a hero, especially during her time when coup's were very common...
mar roxas did something, but not that much of a thing...he didn't even pursue his "palengke" stuff, or so i think...
and this is why i condemn them

winter's concept of liberalism

liberalism, for others, means that one should be able to adapt to social change and modernization...one who adapts easily to social networks, new stuff, so-called liberal thoughts like drinking, smoking and even smoking pot...

i say liberalism means being able to choose wisely from a pool of choices... being able to say yes or no or making your own "real" stand on issues... you don't have to be a drinker or smoker to be liberal...just be yourself and choose what you think is right at the time, now that's liberalism for me...

contentions? talk to me, please...

sneaking around

time: it's after my lunch break...
during this time, i should be heading back to my computer and start working again, but here i am sneaking in my friend's office and 'borrowed' his laptop to go online...
>:) deceitful

waiting for summer

summer could mean the time of the year where it's supposed to be hot and dry... summer could also mean "her"...

it is that time of the year-summer time, but i can't feel summer time (vacation) because i'm still doing a lot of things... there are a lot of things that i need to finish, not to mention to start...

i am waiting for her, but it seems like she's waiting for me... i don't know, whatever...



broken

useless

pathetic

(be) still at work

i am currently at work
(be) still at work...
e n c o d i n g
i am supposed to be working
(be) still at work...
t y p i n g
i am waiting for my time
(be) still at work...
b l o g g i n g
i am looking forward to go home
(be) still at work...
t h i n k i n g



w a i t i n g
(be) still at work
d a y d r e a m

working is futile

working is futile hahaha...
i love April 9 just because walang pasok...
nakakapagod ah...
stress-free Araw ng Kagitingan...
magiting narin ako ngayon haha...

i hate it when a so-called leader...

do you know what i hate?

i hate it when a so-called leader says a lot of things, but can't actually do it...
i hate it when a so-called leader always tells me that he/she is too busy...
i hate it when a so-called leader bosses around and does nothing...
i hate it when a so-called leader becomes arrogant and can't get their feet back on solid ground...
i hate it when a so-called leader does not even know his/her mistake...

i dislike so-called leaders...

toxicity

vote wisely

compare
study
vote wisely

inventing a hero: the posthumous re-creation of Andres Bonifacio

Historiography finals essay (edited)

the book Inventing a Hero: the Posthumous Re-Creation of Andres Bonifacio by Glenn Anthony May has been subject to a lot of criticisms and praises...this article aims to decipher May's book and his claims in the most professional way as an undergraduate student...

the book, even if it was subject to a lot of criticisms, tried to improve the craft of the Filipino historian in such that it tried to "fix" something, but then again we can never forget the damage that has been done... historians expect their work to be superseded again and again, which meant that this book really really tried to develop Philippine history...in this book, Glenn May criticized the works of Manuel Artigas, Epifanio de los Santos, Artemio Ricarte, Teodoro Agoncillo, and Reynaldo Ileto...

in writing history, one must consider the authenticity of the sources...we can do this by doing a background check about the author and his credibility...we can also read the sources to know whether that the source is credible by itself...May questioned the credibility of the sources of information about Bonifacio because he claims that some historians misinterpreted and had a difficulty with the Filipino language...the strengths of his claim lies in the fact that he compared materials; however it is also a weak conclusion since it was only a comparison, and not an individual study...

we can never assume in history because history aims and needs to tell the truth because a historian can shape the future...we can avoid assuming by having enough sources and proofs in order to derive to our conclusions...May said that some authors on Bonifacio assumed several ideas because of the absence of proofs and sources...the strength of his argument is that these books really didn't have enough references and footnotes, but his argument was also weak in such that he himself committed the same fallacy by not doing an extensive research (e.g. he criticized Bonifacio's letters without even getting the real document and see for himself his criticism of "the fake" Bonifacio's handwriting)

we need to ask the help of auxillary disciplines in history...May criticized several Filipinos historians' interpretations of the Filipino language, but is is really the ignorance of the Filipino historians or is he just not credible enough? a certain UP scholar contested Glenn May's accusations of misinterpretation... who will we believe, a Filipino scholar or an American who tries to interpret the Filipino language as a secondary language?

Plutarch's theory is "the very character of great men changes history..." May tried to prove that Bonifacio was just a myth due to several reasons including strengthening nationalism, the feeling of a need for heroes, etc...

his claims may or may not be true...

right now, we can never really say if what he claims is right or wrong since Glenn May challenged dead people during the time the book was published...

(the photo was taken from http://www.bibingka.com/phg/books/bonifacio.htm)

Burmese elections

i just reread the article pertaining to the upcoming Burmese elections...

the Burmese are now preparing for an upcoming election, but why is the military junta banning the political party of Aung Sann Suu Kyi? i really don't get the military junta, but i can understand the thought of the military generals as to "why would they follow other nations" since Burma is for Burma...another is that we all know that external forces cannot act upon or interfere with internal issues, but why does the United States, or any country for that matter want to try to democratize Burma? the answer is real simple...because we live in a capitalist world, we try to exploit and develop each other unevenly...if you ask me, it really is unfair and there is no other way but socialism...

they say that they try to understand Burma or any other nation that has a different ideology, but do they really want to understand them or do they just try to change them?

beats me...

of art and night

insanity is art
sanity is not
being who you truly are
declares that you will go that far

...i will get some sleep for awhile because the night is that deep

certain uncertainties

i, Wayne Winter J. Uyseco, the newly elected chairman of the Students' Democratic Party, wanted to resign when i found out that i won the position...

i have several reasons that could go on forever, but i realized that if i gathered all my thoughts and the thoughts of others (even those who are wiser than me), and considered them carefully, we will be practicing liberalism and democracy... i am not alone... i used to think that i am on my own, but now i know that SDP is not about me because it is about everyone...

today i choose to be the chairman of the Students' Democratic Party...for now

audit

di ko lubos na maintindihan kung bakit hindi maintindihan ng ibang tao ang sitwasyon ng isang student leader...

hindi por que ikaw ay isang student leader ay dapat maging perpekto ka na... sa mga litrato na nasama sa baha, oo alam ko na may pagkakamali doon pero hindi naman pupuwedeng palitan ang lahat ng nasira kasi hindi lang naman kayo ang naperwisyo at ang naagrabyado...hindi naman pupuwedeng papalitan ang mga litrato niyo tapos yung ibang section ay hindi papalitan, ano kayo Diyos?! we want to promote fairness and equality as much as possible...kaya nga po kami andito para tulungan kayo gumawa ng tamang desisyon eh... sa pag liquidate naman, may mga officer na hindi pa nagpapasa ng kanilang mga resibo...paano yun naging kasalanan ko?

di ko lubos na maintindihan kung bakit hindi maintindihan ng ibang tao ang sitwasyon ng isang student leader...

Vanilla Twilight - Owl City

the stars lean down to kiss you
and i lie awake and miss you
pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
cause i'll dose off safe and soundly
but i'll miss your arms around me
i'd send a postcard to you, dear
cause i wish you were here

i'll watch the night turn light blue
but it's not the same without you
because it takes two to whisper quietly
the silence isn't so bad
til i look at my hands and feel sad
cause the spaces between my fingers
are right where yours fit perfectly

i'll find a pose in new ways
though i haven't slept in two days
cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone
but drenched in vanilla twilight
i'll sit on the front porch all night
waist deep in thought because when
i think of you i don't feel so alone

i don't feel so alone
i don't feel so alone

as many times as i blink
i'll think of you tonight
i'll think of you tonight

when violet eyes get brighter
and heavy wings grow lighter
i'll taste the sky and feel alive again
and i'll forget the world that i knew
but i swear i won't forget you
oh if my voice could reach back through the past
i'd whisper in your ear,
"oh darling i wish you were here"

travel wish list

1. China
2. Japan
3. South Korea
4. Russia
5. Singapore
6. Israel
7. Brunei
8. Burma
9. Cambodia
10. Saudi Arabia
11. India
12. Kazakhstan
13. Jordan
14. Taiwan
15. Australia

the notional world

taKILLya is weird
teKILLya is normal

what's the difference?
both of which kills...
the notional world dictates things into the minds of the people...
we live in the notional world...
we are trapped unless we fight back...

why is killing so weird and not of the norm?
why is drinking cool?

flammable

spark
kindle
burn
blast
ashes
dust

a process of growing and learning;
like gasoline,
people must be in control or else burning down is the only option
we must avoid falling into the shadows of committing mistakes...

listen

a historian's winter

Gwanjitsu
-Basho

Gwanjitsu ya
Omoeba sabishi
Aki no kure

in English...

New Year's Day
-Basho

Ah, the New Year's Day reminds me
Of a lonely autumn evening

in this Haiku by the great Haijin Basho, the Kigo or seasonal reference is winter... winter, as in any literary piece, portrays death and sorrow while autumn refers to dying; but for the Japanese, the New Year is something special because it means new beginnings that one can and might encounter... in this haiku, one remembers a lonely thought (modern day emo) in the midst of happiness... it is a mixture of happiness and sorrow... "to be happy, one must have encountered loneliness..."

i call myself "the historian", and "Winter" is my second name; but this blog is entitled "a historian's winter" because i feel great sorrow, and with reference to the Haiku, i also feel a great deal of happiness... i am a modern day clown...happy to show others, but lonely behind their back...i often remember things that aren't worth remembering...